Today is Exhibition day for my paintings and I am in a reflective and slightly nervous mood as I woke.
I have varying degrees of attachment to my paintings. Some I can farewell without too much concern. A few I can let go, feel a sense of loss and something akin to saying goodbye to children as they leave the nest. And two or three I can’t let go of.
Some years ago I painted what we now call The Big 4 and now it is in the Exhibition. I hate the space on my living room wall where it has hung. I hope that it doesn’t sell and comes back to reoccupy the space. It was/is special because it was one of those painting moments or hours where there was no conscious and deliberate planning, studies, drawings or image at the forefront of my mind. I had the canvas in front of me and from deep in my subconscious came an absolute certainty of hand and eye, and a vision that opened up I painted with a flow and energy and sureness that took only a day or so to complete. Nothing like that has happened since.
I am nervous also at how I might have to rethink my work and alter according to people’s opinions or views, and if any paintings sell.
However this is a day of excitement and anticipation along with nerves. The Salon de Refuse exhibition opening is on at the same time so there may be extra foot traffic coming through Next Level Gallery.
Ma Te Wa
Libby
